I swear, this year is going to be different.....

*I think to myself, "I love this time of year."*

It's almost Halloween. And while yes, the concept of All Hallow's Eve is very intriguing and I end up surfing pagan websites,going to haunted houses and look at things from an all around darker perspective, it's actually that Halloween represents the darkness before the light of Thanksgiving and Xmas.

And it's actually the build up to the holidays that I enjoy more than the actual holiday itself. Every year I end up overhyping the holidays. Tell myself this is the year where I really take the time to soak it all in. Do things I haven't done in the past. Enjoy the situations and the company that comes with these holidays.

The kids are getting older. I'm getting older. And every year, after it's all said and done, I realize, I didn't soak it all in like I should have. I didn't enjoy it like I should have. I rushed through it. Hurried it up.

Well, this year, hopefully that all changes. I'm going to make an effort to take life moment by moment. Try to quit living in the zone of worried anticipation and just live in the now.


All I can do is try.